... I have a beautiful, amazing little boy called Leo who is 3 years and 2 months old. He was conceived after 3 years of 'trying but not trying'. Basically I was diagnosed with a pretty bad case of PCOS back in 2004. In 2005 I married my husband and we both knew we wanted children one day so although we didn't feel financially "ready" we decided to just stop using contraception and see what happened. We kinda thought that it was very unlikely, but if it happened we would feel very blessed. I had 2 miscarriages along the way, both very early on, but it still hurt us both. However, it did mean we discovered that I could at least conceive, so I must be ovulating every now and then. In December 2007 I got the BFP I really wasn't expecting. It sounds daft but it really took me by surprise and I was shocked beyond belief. I only tested as I couldn't understand why I was throwing up in the toilets at work. So I then had the charming experience of taking a pregnancy test in the skanky toilet that was very rarely cleaned and was shared by about 60 staff (men and women). Ick! Anyway, I will never forget that moment, and who really cares where it happened. At that moment I just knew that it was different. I hadn't experienced the sickness when I was pregnant the previous 2 times. And the moment I got that BFP it suddenly dawned on me why i had been feeling so knackered all the time and why my boobs were so bloody sore! It all made sense!
Anyway, needless to say that that story ended well. On 1st August 2008 (4 days overdue) i gave birth to the most beautiful baby I had ever laid eyes on. And life has never been the same since.
I found the newborn stage quite difficult (like a lot of people) but it was mainly due to lack of sleep.. I really don't cope very well without a good nights sleep!!! We never knew if we would ever have another child. When Leo when teeny I think I was happy to leave it at the 1. I just wasn't sure I could cope with all the sleepless nights again. But as time went on we decided we would like another but that we would leave it a few years.
In an attempt to get my PCOS under control and to improve my chances of conceiving i embarked on a diet and fitness plan in January 2011. I have lost 4 stone 4lbs to date and feel SO much better for it.
In April 2011 we decided to begin TTC. We both expected it to take quite a while so thought "why not". We didn't conceive that month, but weren't surprised, we just though "on to the next month". However, in May my whole life was turned upside down when my sister suffered a huge stroke 5 weeks after the birth of her 1st baby due to Eclampsia complications. It was a hideous time and I decided to stop TTC right away. it was horrendously scary that somebody could be so unwell due to pregnancy. It's all such a blur but my sister was in Intensive Care for weeks, then was transferred to a stroke ward and then onto a rehab unit. She is now at home with her husband and gorgeous baby boy and is making amazing progress. She is so determined and strong, i have a HUGE amount of admiration for her. She is a total inspiration! She has a way to go before she is fully able to look after herself and her baby, but she will get there ...... i know she will!!
So, at the end of August r we came to the decision to begin TTC again. Leo turned 3 in August and we kind of felt that we didn't really want to wait any longer. I still had fears around what happened to my sister but I felt that I it was an extremely rare thing to happen and if anything it will just make me much more careful to get any pregnancy issues checked out.
I began tracking my periods on a 'Fertility Friend' iphone app and worked out when i would most likely be ovulating. I made sure we DTD on the most appropriate days and did a fair amount of research into how to improve our chances. I did a pregnancy test on 5th September and got a BFN. I wasn't surprised, i mean how likely would it be to get pregnant straight away?? And then the very next day i got my period. Gah!! But hey-ho, onto the next month....
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