Sunday 29 January 2012

..... 20 weeks today.

I have been BADLY neglecting this blog, I know. To be honest, it's just too much like hard work! LOL!
I seem to be so knackered all the time and any time I do get to myself I just want to flop on the sofa and catch up with FB and Twitter. 


Anyway, i'll do a bit of an update, and try and remember what I haven't already said. 


Christmas was good but manic as we moved house from the 22nd to the 28th December. Not my most clever decision ever but it's worth it now we are all settled in. We moved just 3 doors up into a house that is exactly the same size, however, the new house has a really big conservatory which triples our living space. So now we have a playroom at one end of the conservatory and a dining room at the other end of the conservatory. I have also put our freezer in the dining end as i was sick to death of having it out in the garage and running out in the rain to get anything. So we now have a lounge that is .... well, just a lounge! Not full of toys and junk! The house is generally in a better condition than our other house. Proper wood doors instead of those crappy hollow things, laminate floor in the lounge (not classy but looks much nicer and more practical), lovely kitchen. Only downside is the bathroom is pretty hideous. But hey, I can live with that. 


Anyway, so there was that. To add to the stress I had a small bleed on Christmas Eve which thankfully came to nothing but was probably due to me overdoing it a bit what with moving house. Scared me to death though of course.


People are now noticing and asking if i am pregnant as I have a proper bump. I compared bump photos last night of this pregnancy and my pregnancy with Leo and i am MUCH bigger this time. I guess cos my stomach muscles are shot to shit, although they were never great anyway. It might look more prominent as I'm a bit slimmer too. Although that might not last long as i am putting weight on like there is no tomorrow. Seriously, i am way too embarrassed to tell people  how much i have gained already, and every day i tell myself i will cut down on the crap but all i wanna do is eat! 


I saw my Midwife last Monday who i haven't seen since booking in. She went through all my blood results which looked fine apart from one which showed up an 'undefinable' abnormality, so i have to go back on Wednesday to have more blood tests. My blood pressure was fine, in fact it was pretty good for me, so that was a relief. Then she listened to the heartbeat. I suddenly got all nervous, because as usual i had of course convinced myself that something would be wrong. She warned me that it might take a while to find, but literally the second she put the microphone thingy on my tummy, there is was. A very strong little heartbeat! :) it was LOVELY! I had such a massive grin on my face. There were other little bumping noises which she told me was the baby kicking. Ahhh love it!


I have properly started to feel the baby kick over the past few days which I adore!! Hubby has even managed to feel some tiny movements. I feel baby most when i am in the bath, i'm not sure why but I had the same with Leo, he would go crazy in the bath! 


We have a short list of baby names now but will decide properly once we know the sex. I think the boy's name is sorted, but we can't agree on a girls name. I have one I really like but hubby isn't sure. We did settle on one but then I realised that it rhymed with 'Tony' and that would be very bad!! lol. So that one got crossed off the list, but it is still  a possible middle name. 


On the downside i have started to find it difficult to get comfy at night and am not sleeping very well. I really don't cope well with lack of sleep so i'm a bit grumpy at the mo. I have ordered a 'Dream Genii' (pregnancy sleep pillow thingmy) which has been recommended to me so hopefully that will arrive soon and will help me sleep. 


Then on Friday its the big 20 week scan!! Really excited but also nervous (of course). Hoping to find out the sex but still thinking it's a boy. Can't wait to go out and buy some cute boyish or girlish baby clothes once we know. 


Other stressful things that have been going on include Tony having a problem with his gall bladder. He keeps having gall bladder attacks which leave him in a serious amount of pain, vomiting and being unable to sleep or eat. He has obviously had time off of work for this which he hates and isn't good money wise either. But his work are very understanding. He has an abdominal scan on 20th Feb, which really can't come soon enough as it scares me to death when he is unwell. When he had his blood taken his results weren't good. The level of bile in his liver should be between 1 and 10 and Tony's was 500!! Scary! The Dr actually called and asked if he was ok. I don't think he could believe he was still standing. Apparently he had only seen those kind of levels in alcoholics, and Tony doesn't drink! 
Anyway, praying that gets sorted ASAP as it is not the sort of thing we need to be dealing with along with a newborn. I think they will have to remove his gall bladder. 


We also had a scary time with my sister last weekend when she was staying at my parent's house. She suffered a seizure in the bathroom and ended up falling and bashing her head on a wooden washing basket/cabinet. To cut a long story short it was pretty horrendous and resulted in a 2 day stay in hospital which she wasn't amused by. But she now has anti-seizure medication which should help. She had never had a seizure before so we had no idea what was happening, but it's apparently very common for people who have had strokes. 


The great news is that my sister, BIL and baby are planning to move to Devon!! Can't believe it. Their whole priorities in life have changed which makes me so happy. This will make a massive difference to everyone. I'm really looking forward to the opportunity to be there for her more, and to be a big part of baby Frank's life. 


Unfortunately a good friend of mine died 2 weeks ago. She had been battling cervical cancer for around 2 years but it was all very quick towards the end. It was a shock and really affected me. I knew her through Red Hot Chili Peppers forums and fanclub and even though she lived in Australia, we often said we were like twins as we were spookily similar. We always had grand plans to visit each other but she had 2 daughters and then i got pregnant with Leo and it never happened. I feel so very sad about that now though. She was an AMAZING person who always looked out for others and managed to find the positives in everything, even whilst battling cancer. 


So there we have it. The past 8 weeks in a nutshell. Some good things, some bad things, but it all just makes me feel incredibly lucky for my happy, healthy little family. I'm so excited to be having another baby and can't wait to hold it for the first time and gaze at their little face. ♥


Anyway, I'm sure i will be back on Friday with news from the scan! Wish me luck!