.... 7+6

I know I haven't blogged for a while but its hard trying to find the time. I'm so busy in the daytimes and then in the evening i am so bloody tired my brain doesn't work at all.


Anyway, i have  decided to steal 15 mins now to do a quick update.


So, we got back from our holiday on Friday evening. We went to Newquay for 5 days and it was FAB!! Ok, so yeah, it rained a lot. But we totally made the most of every day and  we all had an absolute ball! Leo has a new found love for the  2p machine in the amusements. Many a happy hour spent feeding 2ps into machines. He loved the swimming pool on our campsite as it had a huge shallow area where he could easily stand up and build up his confidence. He actually managed to swim a little bit on his own (with his armbands on) and he is usually way too afraid to take his feet off of the floor if we aren't holding onto him. We had some lovely days out to Newquay Zoo and Paradise Park and on our very last day went to Padstow for the day which was really lovely. The weather was gorgeous and Leo loved splashing about in rock pools and digging up the sand on the beach.


Apart from getting quite tired i had a great time too and actually felt pretty good. I didn't have any morning sickness at all, and had only a few queasy moments.


Leo also LOVED the "disco" over at the campsite clubhouse, so we went every night. He adored having a little boogie on the dancefloor and i couldn't get over how well behaved he was there.


We booked this holiday through the Sun newspaper on their £9.50 deal. Like we do every year. And we were absolutely over the moon when we checked into our caravan to find that we had been given the highest spec caravan on the entire park!! It was amazing! The nicest caravan i have ever seen. It had proper double galzing, vcentral heating with proper radiators in every room, 2 huge lovely sofas, flat screen tv and dvd player, very comfortable beds, a 2 person shower, it was fab! It certainly made the holiday a lot more comfortable. I wanted to stay for longer.


The only thing i could complain about from the whole holiday was the amount of whinging Leo did! Good lord the boy can whinge!! It totally did my head in at times and i might have told him on more than one occassion "If you don't stop whinging we are going home!!". lol. His behaviour is pretty shocking at the moment actually, it seems that since he started pre-school he has become very hard work. I had to have several proper talks with him over the holiday.


Anyway, that was the ONLY thing i could complain about. It was the nicest holiday we have had with Leo to date.


So, back to me. Today Tony has gone back to work and this morning i have started bleeding again. Am feeling very worried. My symptoms seem to be dissapearing too. My boobs aren't sore anymore and i am nowhere near as sick as i was when i was pregnant with Leo. I am so worried!!


I have my 1st midwife appointment today at 3.20pm (thank god!) so will talk about it with her and will see if i can get an urgent scan for tomorrow when Leo is at pre-school. I just need to know everything is ok. I am worrying myself sick. i keep having visions of getting to the 12 week scan and them finding that there is no baby or that something is badly wrong. I'm just not sure I can wait another 4 weeks to find out.


I'm feeling in need of support right now and don't know who to turn to. My family and friends don't know i'm pregnant yet and i don't want to tell them until i know everything is ok. I would normally turn to my online friends but i'm feeling a bit uncomfortable about that at the moment. So i guess i'll have to talk to the Midwife this afternoon.


I'm really worried about having my blood pressure taken this afternoon too. What if it's still high? What will they do with me? Ugh! All this worrying wont help my blood pressure i know, but it's hard staying calm when you want everything to be ok SOOO badly!!!


K. xxx